'Shame' 09-12-2009| 'Ann''Rowe' 'A couple of days ago when class was let out, i was getting in my car, and someone from my past drove by, then parked. I immediately had a rush of shame and guilt come over me. It hit me like a train. I couldnt think straight but I kept telling myself this is from Satan. As I drove off campus the song What do I Know of Holy aired. I began to sing out loud hoping my voice of praise to God would drain out the lies Satan was throwing at me. It wasnt working. I stopped at the store to pick up some sweet tea for the dinner Iwas cooking for my roommates later that night. When i hopped back in the car my mind was still racing and the shame and guilt was growing. I needed a prayer, i needed a freind. But all my friends were in class. As the radio kicked back on the dj talked about how sometimes we run into people from out pasts, that we are filled with shame and guilt, that it comes from out of the blue. It hits on the days when life is good. Satan attacks when we dont expect it. And that we dont deserve that. We are children of God and His desires for us are big and beautiful... Then the dj prayed over the people who had just run into someone from his or her past, and had feelings of guilt, shame and unworthiness. As I sat at the red light, tears rolled down my cheeks, my chin quivered. The prayer ended and the song A More Beautiful You aired. My tears made it hard to drive.
All I could do was thank God. His timing is incredible. He knew exactly what i needed. I was blessed with a friend and a prayer.
I want to thank KSBJ for the message you present and the manner in which it crosses the air waves. Love pours from this ministry. Thank you for being there for me when i need encouragement.
In His Love,
Ann Rowe'
